欣旅惠語 VaL's Journey

anyone there?

It's Tuesday.
10 days after I'd set home with the "ah-ha" moments collected, ready for my proposal.
It's 10PM right now.
10 hours after I'd opened my proposal.
I am STILL staring at it.

I feel like this right now...

anyone there?

 

Showers of Blessings

Showers of Blessings

 

Emptying Out

Got into the second car accident in my life; and got away alive, largely unscathed. So am sending my deepest gratitude to all angels in my life - for keeping me and my love safe...and alive.

Our lives took a challenging turn ever since that night. Everything we thought we'd learnt over the months were tested - the trust we've had in each other, the determination to walk our talk together, the synchronity in the way we work, the patience, the everything... Fights, tears, fears. Throughout, I'm thankful for little reminders that we've walked home alive that night to walk this together, to rebuild what we already have - together.

So love, if you're reading this...

I'm sorry.
Thank you.
I love you.

I'm sorry for being less patient and harsh, moments I'd forgotten I fear bcos I love.
Thank you for being with me, regardless; loving me, regardless.
I love you - enough said :)

Sitting at Coffee Nations cafe, discussing about work and finally realizing it was a process of emptying out for both of us...is a moment I so very cherish.

亲爱的，谢谢你陪我一起疯、一起哭、一起笑。。。


Determined to walk out of Coffee Nations renewed, rejuvenated, ready to restart our lives, we emptied both our wallets of every single cent and spent all we had (which isn't that much, really) on lunch/dinner there.

I'd more in my wallet...
Sentiments I've kept with me over the months/years - a hundred pesos from Mexico and lucky coins from various places. I left them in a magazine with a note:

I'm walking out of this place, renewed and ready to start my life brand new. I'm leaving behind memories from past relationships and even memories of Mexico. I went there in search of "family" and its meaning. Today, I've found home. Because, as long as I'm willing to acknowledge...Home is where the heart is. I'm already home. 

On a side note: Case of accident was settled with car owner and agent finally...and on this note, both Love and I would like to thank Cheng Xi for his big big heart, graciousness and that down-to-earth kindness. We wouldn't have been able to walk away from aliwal st, with that much relief, without you. So from us to you - big big thank you.

Emptying Out

 

Being Thankful (despite the despites)

Been grousing and lamenting and sighing much over the last few days and am determined to get myself out of THAT mode.

So, taking a deep breath in...
and then sighing it all out...

I want to list down the things I am thankful for despite the despites:

• taking time and making an effort to do this
• sitting down in my newly redecorated home
• having to pick at the SMU core of myself 
• going for a feel-good leisure jog with Love last evening
• having planned what Simply IS, is
• having brainstormed about the stories 
• finally starting on the Postcard series
• having Ben & Jerry's in bed, over DVD
• sitting through "YES Man" and learning to say "YES" and then actually meaning it 
• having Love's friends over for dinner and talking about old times and actually being familiar in it 
• cooking up a storm in the kitchen and giggling over - well, nothing :)
• marketing (on a Sunday morning)!

I feel MUCH better already :))

Being Thankful (despite the despites)

 

“我原谅你们。”

敬爱的Daddy Mummy：

“我原谅你们。”
可能这句话
来得很莫名其妙
甚至是很没礼貌

可能这句话
我比你们
更需要听到
“我原谅你们。”

原谅你们的无知
原谅你们也不过只是人
原谅你们
用你们所懂的方式
用你们所拥有的资源
爱我、呵护我
抚养我成人

原谅你们的无奈
原谅你们并不是神
原谅你们
有不知道和没有答案的时候
有情绪、有困扰、有害怕
还是爱我，还是保护我
让我成人

我们都是先学着做儿女
再学着做父母
每一次都是第一次
每一次你我都是彼此的导师与学生

因为如此，我谢谢你们：

“爱”这一堂课 - 谢谢你们
原来会恨因为很爱
原来爱的方式不只是一个
原来爱在我还没来到这个世界时已开始
原来爱在多次的伤害后却未曾停止
原来爱一直到现在
原来爱我也有本事

“对不起”这一堂课 - 谢谢你们
原来会对不起因为爱
原来对不起可以是一种表示
原来对不起已经不知不觉
原来对不起我早已听到
原来对不起你们没有想要我说

“原谅”这一堂课 - 谢谢你们
原来会原谅也因为爱
原来原谅是一种感激
原来原谅。。。
让我们继续爱

每次我的“情书”，都不知道
你们是否看到、听到

“我原谅你们。”
我很肯定

你们已经听到了

“我原谅你们。”

 

云

我们本来是一朵云
风来了
吹散了

所以你是你
然后我是我
来到这世界

找回“我们”
找回
一朵云

云

 

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