欣旅惠語 VaL's Journey

一句话

“我有很多想要做的东西。但现在，我只想做一件事。”

嗯。

一句话

 

番薯汤的故事

“煮绿豆汤把全部的东西放下去给它煮，后来再来 collect 就可以了，不用站在那边等。”

哦。那。。。你煮番薯汤的时候，会不会站在那里等呢？

“为什么你会记得我说过有的没有的的话？”

哦。那。。。为什么你会记得我的 empty Christmas sock 的故事？

番薯汤的故事

 

Dear Xi 06

一言警醒梦中人：“你到家了，但你的家已不再是我的怀里。”

所以，我每次痛、每次思念。。。就要记起你的List，你的这句话吧。

和你去看《爱情18克》，记得有一幕，有那么一段对白：

“你每次哭的时候，都会跑到我的怀里抱我。”

“那是因为，让我哭的人不是你。”

嗯。

Dear Xi 06

 

How Apt

《我的心太乱》

夜里难以入睡 用什么可以麻醉?
情绪太多 怎堪面对?
不是不要你陪 有些事你无法体会
卸下了防备 孤独跟随

我想要一个 自己的空间
能够好好想想我们之间的明天
如果爱情不如我们想像的甜美
那么所有的罪让我来背

我的心太乱 要一些空白
你若是明白 让我暂时的离开
我的心太乱 不敢再贪更多爱
想哭的我 却怎么哭也哭不出来

我的心太乱 要一些空白
老天在不在 忘了为我来安排
我的心太乱 害怕爱情的背叛
想哭的我 像是一个迷路小孩
迷路的小孩

--

晚上。时钟的分秒针很清晰，冰箱的引擎很大声。。。
又是谁搭电梯回家了？

声音的节奏，仿佛模仿着你对我说的
“你没有试、你没有听、你没有懂、
你没有回应我、你没有珍惜我、你没有相信我、
你没有、你没有、你没有。。。”

是这样吗？

从一开始，你就记载了一点又一点的埋怨。
吵架的时候，你会一一地列出来。
从一开始，我就不够好。
那无尽的排行榜，我牢牢记着。
从一开始，你就不是我的。
就不是我的。
从一开始，我就不属于你的世界。
可以在一夜间被转进去，也会在一念间被转出来。

你的世界转得很快，我跟不上。
你的要求欲望，我实践不到。
你的终点，我到不了。

你对我的责备，我从第一天开始就毫无疑问地接受。
就连你的背叛，我都充满着自责悔恨。

我很难过。我很难受。
我好想哭。

真的真的好想哭。

How Apt

 

到家了

回家的路上，收到了Mdm的简讯息-where are you? My heart skipped a beat n immediately wondered if all is alright at home...原来，是要叫我回家-come home. Wanna give u a hug before I go for work.天啊，非要我哭不可？

我还在想 - perhaps, it's me give her a hug bahs... Afterall, it's been a rough day.

回到家，还来不及说什么就很不由自主地sink into the big outstretched arms 了。这一刻才发现，原来我们都需要一个拥抱、一份安尉。

＂到家了。＂

我终于落泪了。

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到家了

 

原来

曾几何时我发现到
原来我跟你一样怕、一样渴望
渴望有一个“懂我”的人
却又怕到要死

"How are you?"
我很难过 但又说不出口
只能紧紧地抱着你
让一点点眼泪落下 让自己破裂一点点

你好像懂了
我好像就坚强了

原来
那是牵强

因为怕
怕让你进来 温柔地守护着
怕让你进来 委婉地爱惜着

怕你救我
更怕你保护我
再离开我

所以，从来都没让自己
完全地破碎

碎成那数不清的许多
碎成那拼不回的一切

我累了
所以，多破了一点点
撑不下去了
再破那么一点点。。。

原来

 

Goodnight, goodbye

What if I told you I wish I could paint another picture for your eyes?
What if I told you they wouldn't fade all the memories from our lives?
Would that make everything alright...

Spinning round and round the world the same
But close your eyes and it will be okay
So tuck in your nightmares and kiss them goodnight
Goodnight goodnight at least for just tonight

What if I told you not everything that happens to you has a reason?
What if I told you the tears you shed is finding a way to heal you?
Would that make everything alright...

Spinning round and round the world the same
But close your eyes and it will be okay
So tuck in your nightmares and kiss them goodnight
Goodnight goodnight
Goodnight goodnight at least for just tonight

Won't be the last chance, won't be the last dance
Won't be the night our dream dies
Just remember to smile try not to think of me now
And all the words we've sown
All the bonds we've grown
And all our hopes will be alright

--

Have given resignation notice to my dear dear boss at work last night. 最近好像常常道别 - 我想，每一个离别都是向前走的推动力吧。从这里看过去，似乎若再前进，就会坠落悬崖。。。

The way of love
is not a subtle argument

The door there
is devastation

Birds make great sky-circles of their freedom.
How do they learn that?

They fall.
And falling, they are given wings.

Val, 是时候飞翔了。

Goodnight, goodbye

 

Silver Dreams

To everyone and anyone who took 2hours of your weekend to come watch "Silver Dreams" - big bow from me to you. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you.

Thank you because...

我一直以为 - 长大后，毕业后，完成我父母的心愿后，就可以飞翔、可以实践梦想。毕业了，我开始把CV 投出去。And someone believed in me, believed in me enough to give me a 4 year artiste management contract, my parents believed in my conviction enough to give me their blessings…and "sub-prime" happened. Having to take on debts and responsibilities, I entered the corporate world.

Half a year later, at the moment I thought I've sold my life and my dreams to the corporate world, someone believed in me enough to offer me the opportunity to produce documentaries, to tell real stories. Having taken my first step on national TV in a docu-drama series, this was a God-sent opportunity I immediately jumped at. I tendered.

On the day before my last day at work, an unexpected circumstance surfaced and I was back in the corporate world.

To me, I could literally see that door to my dreams close, hear it slam shut. Ready to announce "I give up", Eugene emailed me about "Silver Dreams" and asked if I'll take a role if he could work rehearsal timings round my job. 为什么总是在我面临绝望的时候给我一线光芒。。。然后又在我充满希望的时候让我狠狠地失望？Yet I was very very blessed to be living with a mentor so wise and so supportive, who literally made me say yes and made sure I commit to rehearsals and made sure she had a ticket to the show. Just like that, I became a part of Silver Dreams.

Became a part of Dreams coming true. Became a part of a Voice that needed to be heard so badly. Became a believer. All along, I needed someone to believe in me – that I am entitled to Dreams, that I am good enough, that I am borne to do this, that I am meant to do this – to give me opportunities, to open that door for me. Over the weekend of Silver Dreams, I realized that the one person who needed to believe in any of this…is myself.

Knowing this, 我不再对自己说"加油"。。。我说："Val，快到了！"

Silver Dreams